Circus, Deaf, Personal, Philosophy

Turning 30 …

Auslan version of this blog:

I turned 30 on 5th November of 2014 and I spent the evening with few friends enjoying delicious Italian food and red wine followed by ice-cream at Movenpick in Southbank of Brisbane. That is how I like to celebrate my special milestone – delicious food, wine, and good friends which equals to fantastic conversations. J

Am I nostalgic about turning 30? Not really. It’s more of a reflection of my journey in life. I usually get cranky with people who say, oh this person has more life experience than you do … Everyone has their own journey and they have their own experience of how they react to situations. We all are different and we all have our own experience in life.

When growing up, my life was not a straight forward journey that people believes. I just don’t talk about it unless necessary.   My journey contains many achievements, numerous failures, a lot of happiness, and countless of pains. Although on my journey, many profound changes had happened, quite a few important bonds had to end and new relationship with others has begun. Old habits and attitudes are constantly transformed. The seeds have sown over the years is blossoming and some may die.

Like for example, during the creative development and rehearsal of Vulcana Women’s Circus’ performance, “Small Change”, I was asked to sign only for my story. I was very resistance to the idea of signing with voice off. You know, all my life, I rely on my voice for verbal communication and I rely on lip-reading to understand the conversation. A simple request like this made me angry but I contain my emotions about this idea. I thought, why not give it a go and see how you go.

The change was transformational for me as I allowed myself to explore that side of my identity as a deaf person. In the end, I thoroughly enjoyed the experience as I expressed my story in Auslan with body language. It was beautiful and it has significant impact on the audience.

Also I get to develop a poem and translate it into visual vernacular which I thoroughly enjoyed the process. This leads to significant change within myself and I look forward to how I can continue communicating in both Auslan and Visual Vernacular.

When you reach the end of the cycle, nothing is quite the same again, yet you look forward to what may come to you in near future.   Some of us try to hold on to it while other let it go and accept the end of a cycle to start a new cycle.

To end on a high note, I am going to share an Auslan music video of Slim Dusty, “Looking Forward Looking Back”.



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